sleepy

It's only like noon and I am so sleepy I could hardly keep my eyes opened, don't ask me why. I hate writing from work, but since this is the only (kind of) way, i have to be satisfied with it. And these chemistry articles are killing me bit by bit, and the stories that my colleagues are telling around me (the in-laws are stupid and mean, the husband is always reticent to changing the furniture, blablablabla) are even worse. Oh, nevermind, I hope this weekend I could travel to Russe, I heard so much about it that now I'm expecting something very different from Romania.
Other than that, I hate it when I'm missing someone I got used to having around. Good night everyone!:)

better

I am weather dependent. That's for sure. But today it seems that my good mood cannot be ruined by anything, not even by the cloudy sky or by the pile of papers on my desk at work. I think I have regained my trust or so it seems, and I've come to the conclusion, with the help of a friend (hi alex), that girls/women are like that, they experience a wide range of moods which make them act like "crazy". I do not consider this crazy, don't get me wrong, I just wanted to assert this for myself cause I never thought of it in this way. And my trusting problems with M. are nothing but changing moods. For now. I hope...

autumn already?

I hate this weather with all my heart, it seems like the world is doomed again and it makes me feel down, as if i wasn't already. Walk up with a feeling that something is wrong, of course this feeling could be induced, but last night I really felt that there was something going wrong between me and M. But then I thought that I might be wrong because I created this situation, I was the one acting strange and he is only reacting to this thing, he is feeling it and he is leaving me alone, considering this is the best way to deal with it. I really don't know. I really don't know if I should talk about it, cause it might hurt his feelings, saying "u know what, I thought this would be easy, but it ain't, trusting u and all, I feel you're hiding things from me, that you're not being honest..."......bleah, hate this kind of talk, this kind of words. Well, today I hate the world and probably, as a reaction, the world hates me as well.

back

a little bit of a quiet holliday, although not the vacation of my dreams... Somebody asked me here why do i write in English... That is why "the fuck" do I write in English... Well, wise guy, because I may want to be in touch with people from the world, not from Romania only. And because it is universal. I don't even know if this one deserved an answer, but it irritated me, it's stupid question.
As for the introspective qualities of my diary, one must understand that I have to get used to it before I let me introspect myself.. if that makes sense to anyone at all.
First day at work, it feels better than expected, don't know why, guess I'm in danger of becoming a work addict... Hope not (((.