hope next year is better

Well, to tell the truth, i honestly thought I will do much better by now, but it seems nothing is as I planned. I should mind, of course, but except for being verrrrrry nervous, I'm ok. If ok means with many problems but still being able to laugh at a good joke.
I spend my life thinking about these guys that matter and I really cannot tell which one is the one. Maybe none. Although.. I don't know... I'm so confused that I can hardly tell who I am... Juat wanted to let everyone know what's up with me.