worse

oh, ok, so they told I will get better in time but my only oppinion is that I'm worse, ufff, I hate my life entirely right now, where is the mistake, the fact that I broke up with the man I considered the one (but who tortured me for five years), or the fact that I threw myself too soon in a very tricky relationship? If it wasn't for M. I wouldn't have had the power to break up with C., but one thing led to another, now we are living together, we meet only one hour per day, there are so many problems that I get dizzy....ufff. I guess now there's nothing I could do but wait, how about now? What do I do NOW?

party tonight

Well, today we have the anual party at work... stil can't get used to being ordered to have fun with a bunch of people that consider me either a child, or somebody that doesn't matter anyway. Nevertheless, the one reason for going there is that seeing all those oldies (but goldies:)) dancing, trying to move their hips and legs like they used to (perhaps) makes me laugh, it's also sad if you think about it, but trust me, seeing them on floor is so hilarious:). So, I dress up, put on some make up and just go. It's ok, but the thought that this happens because I have to, not because I want to, makes me feel bad. Hate constraints of any kind...