worse

oh, ok, so they told I will get better in time but my only oppinion is that I'm worse, ufff, I hate my life entirely right now, where is the mistake, the fact that I broke up with the man I considered the one (but who tortured me for five years), or the fact that I threw myself too soon in a very tricky relationship? If it wasn't for M. I wouldn't have had the power to break up with C., but one thing led to another, now we are living together, we meet only one hour per day, there are so many problems that I get dizzy....ufff. I guess now there's nothing I could do but wait, how about now? What do I do NOW?